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My Soul Is Empty

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 18, 2014, 6:28 PM
Art and CSS Yuminn


I think I should write up a small journal explaining my absence.

About a year back, I went back to work. I changed jobs once, going back to the original job I was working before I had my son. Not a big deal; figured since I was a cashier at the time that I'd have plenty of time to log onto dA and write and spend time in the chats like I used to.

Nowadays, I'm hardly online and I hardly have time to write. It's not JUST work. Life in general makes it difficult. Being a mother, attempting to get divorced and working does take its toll. By time I'm off for the night, I have very little time to myself. 

Yes, I have access to dA on my phone but honestly, I'm starting to get lazy about wanting to be on dA. I've been here since 2004 on different accounts over the years and I'm starting to find that dA just isn't the place that it used to be. It's not as satisfying like it used to be. Maybe that's because I'm hardly on it and I'm out of the loop with things. Or, maybe that means as a person, I've just grown away from it finally. 

I apologize to those who do still talk to me or stalk my page in hopes of new work. At this point, I think my life is about to hit another turning point in my life (and, I hope it's a good one). I'll still come online here every so often but I'll more than likely be over at another website most of the time. ^.^ I'll still post writings here but I have no clue how often anymore.
 

Some days I feel like I will shatter into a million pieces. As if I will break the moment someone looks at me or lays a single breath on me. I feel like glass; fragile and dangerous. I feel as if I am lying here, trapped. Waiting until something breaks the lock down, opens the door and sets me loose from this cage. But, the cage is everywhere. My heart, my mind, my body. It's a darkness that no one can see, it creeps in over my flesh and steals up through my spine, into my lungs and poisons my entire blood supply.

Some days, I feel as if Master's arms are not enough. I feel cold and shake from head to toe. I feel as if my tongue is in a vice; locked in my mouth, sand filling the empty space so I will not be able to say a single word or utter a single sound.

I reach out and for a moment, I clutch nothing but darkness. Engulfing me, swallowing me whole and pulling me under the currents. I thrash and flail and I think I hear myself cry out. I feel no warmth, I don't hear Master's sweet voice, nothing. And, that panics me. It frightens me like the night terrors that eat at me every night. It scares me like the monsters that I still can feel lurking under my bed, the demons that prey and feed on the anger and hatred that is left behind.

Warmth reaches my fingertips. I struggle to the surface for I feel I may only have a moment before slipping under again. Please Master, help take this burden, help take this pain. I know I am strong, you tell me all the time but tonight, I am weak. Tonight, I wish I were strong enough for the both of us.

i left you a gift, Master
     it's right below your chin
nestled right there in that perfect spot
    bright red, slightly bruised around the edges
        it thrills me watching you wear them proud
        as a sign you are mine
            and i wear yours proudly
                to show the world i am yours

i feel complete next to you
        strong and i can breathe

your arms shield me from the world
    no, i know i am not fragile but
        you and i have seen how ugly the rest of the world can be
    so you protect my innocence and devotion
        you protect my love and my humanity
        and i'll shield you in my arms too
            when you come home
            weary and weakened from the strain of life
        lay your head upon my shoulders
        even if only a moment
i'll hold everything at bay
    i'm not fragile i am strong
    i am a woman i am your sub
        i am the everything you desire

i will give you all of me
        in return
                                give me all of you
                i'll cradle your heart next to mine
        protect it and encase it in my love
        i'll hold it high
        i'll let it soar
            bring you the entire world
            bring you down and ground you
i'll give you every single thing you wish for

i am your woman
    my hips are your own
    my shoulders will bear your burdens
        my heart will beat for you
        my tongue will speak softly and kindly
to tease you and love you and admire you

i give you my ultimate gift Master
        i give you all of me
all of me
Yes, I am aware it's lame D: I haven't been able to really write much lately D:
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My Soul Is Empty

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 18, 2014, 6:28 PM
Art and CSS Yuminn


I think I should write up a small journal explaining my absence.

About a year back, I went back to work. I changed jobs once, going back to the original job I was working before I had my son. Not a big deal; figured since I was a cashier at the time that I'd have plenty of time to log onto dA and write and spend time in the chats like I used to.

Nowadays, I'm hardly online and I hardly have time to write. It's not JUST work. Life in general makes it difficult. Being a mother, attempting to get divorced and working does take its toll. By time I'm off for the night, I have very little time to myself. 

Yes, I have access to dA on my phone but honestly, I'm starting to get lazy about wanting to be on dA. I've been here since 2004 on different accounts over the years and I'm starting to find that dA just isn't the place that it used to be. It's not as satisfying like it used to be. Maybe that's because I'm hardly on it and I'm out of the loop with things. Or, maybe that means as a person, I've just grown away from it finally. 

I apologize to those who do still talk to me or stalk my page in hopes of new work. At this point, I think my life is about to hit another turning point in my life (and, I hope it's a good one). I'll still come online here every so often but I'll more than likely be over at another website most of the time. ^.^ I'll still post writings here but I have no clue how often anymore.
 

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"I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference."
-Robert Frost


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The-WrinklyNinja Featured By Owner 6 hours ago  Hobbyist Photographer
Hi Raye! :wave:

Thanks for :+fav:ing. :)
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Archer7Tadayoshi Featured By Owner Sep 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Hello Firework! Are you going to launch in the chat room and provide us a dazzling display? chat.deviantart.com/chat/GayBi…
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IrrevocableFate Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2014   Writer
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a-neverending Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
You know, I mostly stopped by because of your wish in 'Good intentions', but I stayed because of your charming profile. I openly admit having read through most of your comments and I just have to say that you're a really sweet person. I fully hope your wish will get fulfilled :)
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